My baby was sick yesterday and then slammed her hand in a door (nothing broken! only owies) so you have an open thread today. Tomorrow will be extra-special great, for the both of us, as Dewey Cox’s younger brother said.
Just over a year ago an Victorian (Australia) jury found a catholic cardinal to be guilty of a historical child sexual abuse crime. This set off a trigger and I finally admitted my own past where I was sexually abused at age 7 - nearly 26 years ago. I’ve been in therapy since but suffered from PTSD. Today the high court of Australia overturned that and I am very sensitive and upset about it. I don’t know why I am writing this here, except to say to fellow victims, as the premier of Vic said, you are seen and you are believed.
Welp, I just cried on camera during our virtual staff meeting! Quarantine achievement unlocked, maybe? I don't think I realized how stressed I was until it was my turn to talk about how things were going. /sigh
I'm in a pretty terrible work sitch (I'm on stress leave it was so bad, which I recognize I am immensely privileged to even be able to do) and I'm trying very hard to find something else.
I've been interviewing and interviewing and I'm starting to lose faith anything is gonna land. "why don't they love me and want me?" I think, as I turn into the girl I was trying to find a boy, any boy, in her 20s. There's no real feedback from interviews, obviously. So warm thoughts are appreciated and if you have any magical tips on how to dazzle them, I am all ears.
The job opportunities are also drying up, for obvious world reasons, but I'll panic about that at a later date.
Yikes! Our baby decided Sunday was the day that he was just going to keep walking off the edge of the couch no matter how many times we did, or DID NOT, get there in time to catch him. Lucky for us it was just owies too. He does have a rambunctious older brother so he's kind of 15 months of adamantium at this point.
Could use some virtual hugs today. I'm stressed and upset because my beloved social-butterfly grandma, who I'm very close to, is refusing to take social distancing seriously. She's offended that several of us told her she should *not* meet multiple friends for a birthday lunch. I'm scared for her, angry that she isn't taking more precautions, and worried because if she gets sick she won't be able to take care of herself and risks getting other family members sick too. And I'm a plane ride away and wouldn't be able to visit.
Of course this is hypothetical and hopefully she will stay healthy but jeez, I'm scared of getting sick myself, even though I'm not in a high-risk group, so I don't know why it hasn't sunk in for her.
Meanwhile I'm on edge, bitchy to my patient husband, impatient with baby fussing, and trying to get work done in between all the upset feelings and baby care and whew, it's been a long week already.
Sharing good news: A kiddo we know is officially adopted as of this morning. The judge held the ceremony via webex. Which is far from ideal, but it still made me cry happy tears.
I am having A BAD DAY. I am not super productive at work and screwed up a thing. It got caught, it’s fine, but I don’t wanna be the fuckup when the company is hanging on. And a distant family member died of corona and they closed all the parks in my town, which I know is sensible but my daily dog park trip was the best thing in my day and I feel like all the regulars were being sensible and I just feel huffy and petulant and like I need to go meet a friend for hugs and maybe a kick ass cocktail. Ugh. Pandemics suck, huh?
Today is the first birthday of the daughter of our closest neighborhood friends. Max was doing some part-time nannying for them. We've really been missing seeing them (especially because we used to share a two-family so could have just isolated as a unit) in general, but it's particularly bad today. We've spent so much time with Sylvie in her first year, and it sucks to not be able to celebrate her today.
I have to have a lot of difficult conversations this week and I'm not looking forward to any of them and at the same time my brain is literally broken and can do nothing
OK, I just now decided to check the actual website, I did not get an email today. Which is odd. Considering I specifically look for, open, and sometimes star these.
Anyway, hi everyone. Nicky, I'm so sorry your baby wasn't feeling well.
I have been having SO MANY stress dreams. Last night I dreamed that almost all the faculty at my university were laid off, and as I was coming back from my last class (teaching Russian, which I do not teach), I saw a big sign for a Goodbye to the Students party and realized that they were Not Socially Distancing At All. Ugh. What about you all?
I slept terribly and need to figure out how to get a refill of my anti depressants given my partner's EXTREME (and given that they are at risk, reasonable) concerns about my getting to the pharmacy even though it's down the street to get them so working on alternatives. Even though I really just want to get them because we're both terrified of my dealing with lexapro withdrawal (I have two days worth of pills left, hoping capsule will come through for me today).
I hope she's feeling better today! I am currently really struggling with a knitting pattern that's working as sort of a focus for my otherwise free floating feelings of helpless dread and rage. This has been helpful for me because I have faith that eventually I will conquer it and have a pretty baby sweater (and never buy from that pattern writer again).
I have a pressing question that's maybe more timely now than usual: do you folks "air" your beds before you make them? Ofc this is a practice that is best if you aren't rushing out the door in the morning.
I've started to do it. I'll report back if it Changes My Life.
Hoping to pick the brains of parents/people who hand out with kids:
I am doing a couple-of-times a week hour-or-so long zoom hang out with the big kid (3rd grade) in the family I nanny for so the mom can do a little homeschooling with the little kids. I think we'll get a solid couple of days out of her recapping the movies she's seen, but will definitely need some activities eventually.
Me reading out-loud is an option (my kids book collection is a little dismal, unfortunately) and her reading to me is too, but I think that's not going to be super appealing. Any other suggestions? Things that relatives/friends have been doing on video calls with your kids that have been fun? Things you've done on video calls with the kids in your life?
My 56 year old mother works at grocery store in Connecticut and yesterday some asshole COUGHED on her on PURPOSE because she asked them to maintain social distancing in her line. I am beyond furious. I'm so worried about her and there's nothing I can do.
There is a kind of uniform monotony in the fate of man. Our lives unfold according to ancient, unchangeable laws, according to an invariable and ancient rhythm. Our dreams are never realized and as soon as we see them betrayed we realize that the intensest joys of our life have nothing to do with reality. No sooner do we see them betrayed than we are consumed with regret for the time when they glowed within us. And in this succession of hopes and regrets our life slips by.
Just over a year ago an Victorian (Australia) jury found a catholic cardinal to be guilty of a historical child sexual abuse crime. This set off a trigger and I finally admitted my own past where I was sexually abused at age 7 - nearly 26 years ago. I’ve been in therapy since but suffered from PTSD. Today the high court of Australia overturned that and I am very sensitive and upset about it. I don’t know why I am writing this here, except to say to fellow victims, as the premier of Vic said, you are seen and you are believed.
Welp, I just cried on camera during our virtual staff meeting! Quarantine achievement unlocked, maybe? I don't think I realized how stressed I was until it was my turn to talk about how things were going. /sigh
I'm in a pretty terrible work sitch (I'm on stress leave it was so bad, which I recognize I am immensely privileged to even be able to do) and I'm trying very hard to find something else.
I've been interviewing and interviewing and I'm starting to lose faith anything is gonna land. "why don't they love me and want me?" I think, as I turn into the girl I was trying to find a boy, any boy, in her 20s. There's no real feedback from interviews, obviously. So warm thoughts are appreciated and if you have any magical tips on how to dazzle them, I am all ears.
The job opportunities are also drying up, for obvious world reasons, but I'll panic about that at a later date.
Yikes! Our baby decided Sunday was the day that he was just going to keep walking off the edge of the couch no matter how many times we did, or DID NOT, get there in time to catch him. Lucky for us it was just owies too. He does have a rambunctious older brother so he's kind of 15 months of adamantium at this point.
Could use some virtual hugs today. I'm stressed and upset because my beloved social-butterfly grandma, who I'm very close to, is refusing to take social distancing seriously. She's offended that several of us told her she should *not* meet multiple friends for a birthday lunch. I'm scared for her, angry that she isn't taking more precautions, and worried because if she gets sick she won't be able to take care of herself and risks getting other family members sick too. And I'm a plane ride away and wouldn't be able to visit.
Of course this is hypothetical and hopefully she will stay healthy but jeez, I'm scared of getting sick myself, even though I'm not in a high-risk group, so I don't know why it hasn't sunk in for her.
Meanwhile I'm on edge, bitchy to my patient husband, impatient with baby fussing, and trying to get work done in between all the upset feelings and baby care and whew, it's been a long week already.
Sharing good news: A kiddo we know is officially adopted as of this morning. The judge held the ceremony via webex. Which is far from ideal, but it still made me cry happy tears.
I am having A BAD DAY. I am not super productive at work and screwed up a thing. It got caught, it’s fine, but I don’t wanna be the fuckup when the company is hanging on. And a distant family member died of corona and they closed all the parks in my town, which I know is sensible but my daily dog park trip was the best thing in my day and I feel like all the regulars were being sensible and I just feel huffy and petulant and like I need to go meet a friend for hugs and maybe a kick ass cocktail. Ugh. Pandemics suck, huh?
Hope she's feeling better all around.
Today is the first birthday of the daughter of our closest neighborhood friends. Max was doing some part-time nannying for them. We've really been missing seeing them (especially because we used to share a two-family so could have just isolated as a unit) in general, but it's particularly bad today. We've spent so much time with Sylvie in her first year, and it sucks to not be able to celebrate her today.
Poor baby! I hope she feels better today.
I have to have a lot of difficult conversations this week and I'm not looking forward to any of them and at the same time my brain is literally broken and can do nothing
OK, I just now decided to check the actual website, I did not get an email today. Which is odd. Considering I specifically look for, open, and sometimes star these.
Anyway, hi everyone. Nicky, I'm so sorry your baby wasn't feeling well.
I'm listening to a lot of José González today. It's nice.
I have been having SO MANY stress dreams. Last night I dreamed that almost all the faculty at my university were laid off, and as I was coming back from my last class (teaching Russian, which I do not teach), I saw a big sign for a Goodbye to the Students party and realized that they were Not Socially Distancing At All. Ugh. What about you all?
I slept terribly and need to figure out how to get a refill of my anti depressants given my partner's EXTREME (and given that they are at risk, reasonable) concerns about my getting to the pharmacy even though it's down the street to get them so working on alternatives. Even though I really just want to get them because we're both terrified of my dealing with lexapro withdrawal (I have two days worth of pills left, hoping capsule will come through for me today).
I hope she's feeling better today! I am currently really struggling with a knitting pattern that's working as sort of a focus for my otherwise free floating feelings of helpless dread and rage. This has been helpful for me because I have faith that eventually I will conquer it and have a pretty baby sweater (and never buy from that pattern writer again).
I sympathize! My son also slammed his hand in a door yesterday! Also nothing broken. Hooray for flexible kid bones.
I have a pressing question that's maybe more timely now than usual: do you folks "air" your beds before you make them? Ofc this is a practice that is best if you aren't rushing out the door in the morning.
I've started to do it. I'll report back if it Changes My Life.
Hope the baby feels better today! (And that the rest of the family is safe and healthy!)
Nicole, it's beautiful.
Ohh sad, it really sucks, but I bet she forget about her sickness when he slammed her hand in a door.
https://celebleatherjackets.com/
*Go to sleep little babe* (Sung to your wee one in an O Brother Where Art Thou voice)
Babies...amiright? Sweet babies.
Hoping to pick the brains of parents/people who hand out with kids:
I am doing a couple-of-times a week hour-or-so long zoom hang out with the big kid (3rd grade) in the family I nanny for so the mom can do a little homeschooling with the little kids. I think we'll get a solid couple of days out of her recapping the movies she's seen, but will definitely need some activities eventually.
Me reading out-loud is an option (my kids book collection is a little dismal, unfortunately) and her reading to me is too, but I think that's not going to be super appealing. Any other suggestions? Things that relatives/friends have been doing on video calls with your kids that have been fun? Things you've done on video calls with the kids in your life?
My 56 year old mother works at grocery store in Connecticut and yesterday some asshole COUGHED on her on PURPOSE because she asked them to maintain social distancing in her line. I am beyond furious. I'm so worried about her and there's nothing I can do.
There is a kind of uniform monotony in the fate of man. Our lives unfold according to ancient, unchangeable laws, according to an invariable and ancient rhythm. Our dreams are never realized and as soon as we see them betrayed we realize that the intensest joys of our life have nothing to do with reality. No sooner do we see them betrayed than we are consumed with regret for the time when they glowed within us. And in this succession of hopes and regrets our life slips by.
Natalia Ginzburg
Winter in the Abruzzi